Theatre of the Damned

You gotta love our leaders who continue to blow smoke up our asses about how fucking great the economy is while unemployment is up, fuel costs and everything else are up and home sales are at an anemic low. I recently joined the ranks of the unemployed for the second time in as many years, the theatre of the damned.

I am not so pretentious to speak for others but, we have strived for the American dream even though the American dreams is no longer something that belongs to Americans. We get a degree, marry, begin a family, purchase a home and find ourselves in the unemployment lines while immigrants continue to get so many breaks that they can come to our country, open several businesses, and all the while not even have to pay the taxes that provide our officials the capacity to served their own needs instead of the needs of the hard working men and women that are the reason this country is still the greatest despite their inadeqacies.

I have no ill will toward my former employer, it was a business decision and I would have done the same thing, although I probably would have done it prior to hiring me and filling my head with posibilities that would never come to fruition. So here I sit typing anxiously while worrying constantly about the home I just purchased, the life I've created with my wife and the future of my family.

At first I was somewhat relieved as I saw this coming for some months now. It seemed like it may be fun, having the summer off, floating in the pool, tanning and sipping pina coladas while I contemplated what direction I may head in the future. But after several weeks I am finding myself increasingly complacent about just where I can head.

About 3 years ago I decided to return to school to increase my earning potential. Since I was in grade school I've been told that a college degree is the most important thing towards realizing one's potential. What I have found is that companies are not all that excited about hiring someone in his early 40s who's decided to begin a new path in his journey.

I could stay in the industry that has supported me for the last 24 years but have seen that this is a young man's industry and that the fucks in charge have changed the rules over the past several years. No longer do they reward those who have the moxy to work full time and pursue a degree, no they have chosen to instead expect increasingly longer hours at an inconsequential wage for the time and effort their employees exude. And when these employees outlive their usefullness they swat them away like a gnat that is annoying them while they sip their pinot grigio at the country club.

So as the tone of this post seems quite maudlin, I assure you my readers that I have far too much to lose to roll over and die a peaceful death in this unfortunate marketplace. I will be the exception, I will cause heads to turn and I will overcome whatever obstacles that the government and big business(really the same thing aren't they?)may feel like throwing my way. And when all is said and done, I will be floating on my raft, sipping my pina colada and holding my middle finger up highly and proudly and finding a direction despite this disadvantage of being born an American.